this IE is still bloody hard work!
The trouble is, I'm still thinking about it as a diet and when I had a less-than-ideal day, like yesterday, I start worrying about what I've eaten and how I'm not going to lose any weight if I keep eating when I'm not hungry, etc, etc, ETC!
Yesterday, we went out for lunch as a family which is scary by itself. It went pretty well as no one had a meltdown ( including me) but I was a bit stressed about eating out. We don't go out very often as the kids are young and the toddler can be dreadfully behaved; it's too embarrassing. But I got hungry just before we left, scoffed a couple of bits of toast and of course wasn't hungry at the restaurant. I ordered stuff I fancied though, and could have probably stopped, satisfied after the starter but I didn't. I had the burger as well, & a little coleslaw but only had a couple of chips- they weren't very nice. I was pretty full so wasn't hungry until the kids dinner time- we had pikelets, so i had a couple of those and then wasn't hungry for my dinner- which I ate anyhow. I didn't seem to get full though.
I had a discussion with a friend that made me feel a bit cross-um guilty, annoyed, not sure what really but I was thinking about food as a solution to calm those anxious feelings. Actually looking back on that, i really didn't do too badly. I haven't raided the biscuit tin for quite a while now and I m tuning in to how I'm feeling.
Today, I haven't been able to keep my mind off the left over pikelets. I was hungry this am and had toast. The kids had icecream but I didn't want one. I had a couple of biscuits though as was feeling a little peckish and have now finished off the pikelets with butter as I really, really fancied them. My GM used to make these for me when I was little, so they have comfort connotations for me. I wasn't hungry but I'm now quite full and not thinking about food at all so they've plugged the gap.
Each day is different I guess and eating intuitively is only an embryo of a habit with me at the moment, so I'm not doing too badly.