We are going to a party.
Not a kids' party either, a grown up one! I can't remember the last time we went out to a party together. I'm not a hugely social animal in this sort of situation but it's a 40th party for a friend. I hate having to make an effort to wear 'nice' clothes when nothing looks nice on me. I don't wear makeup so always feel odd in a room full of made up ladies. I hate being looked up and down by people who just see me as a fattie and i HATE eating in front of strangers. Because I'm quite anxious in these situations, then I often overeat out of anxiety and I imagine everyone is looking at my (heaped) plate thinking 'no wonders she's the size she is'.

So the plan:
I have plain, comfortable but smart clothes. Black trousers and tunic top
I think I have some mascara and lipstick....somewhere......
I now think of my fat as a built in jerk-detector, so if anyone is rude to me or treats me as a dumb fat chick, I'll move on but not before I've burnt them to a crisp with my sharp wit and a withering look ( in my dreams!).
The food is a buffet so I've decided I'll go hungry. Them I'm going to look around for what looks delicious and take a portion. If it's nice I can go back for more, if it's not i won't finish it. I will *NOT* be embarrassed by going up to help myself more than once.

Oh, and I must remember not to drink too much alcohol either. I suspect this may be my greatest challenge....