45 days!!!
I forgot about this for 45 days!
Shame on me- oh well.
Hmm, what's been happening?
Well, I didn't do the moonwalk, which I was gutted about. I didn't have time to do enough training and my plantar fasciitis didn't disappear in time, so I'm planning to try again next year.
And as far as IE goes, I think I'm a very little bit ahead I think. I got hole of a copy of Geneen Roth's 'When Food is Love'. For some reason this is quite an old book that is out of print, so I had to order a 2nd hand copy from the States. But it was well worth it for me.
This was such a powerful book for me, so much seemed relevant; I could only read small bits at a time.
I do think the key to 'getting' IE for me is emotion. I need to work on unearthing the emotions that I try to cover by binging eating when not hungry.
Today, I was in the car, driving the kids home from soft play. It was a 40 min drive home, 20 mins of that on the motorway and I was bored. I so wanted to eat and finished what was left of DD3's sweets. I'm not sure how to 'sit with' boredom! Any suggestions?
Actually, maybe I'm feeling fear as well? Driving does freak me out a bit, especially on motorways and I rarely drive anywhere without entertaining the possibility that we could all be wiped out in a horrible car crash. Thats a pretty reasonable thought to want to squash isn't it?
But right now, I'm safe at home and trying not to slip into my usual afternoon feeding frenzy. I actually feel sad when I don't eat- almost tearful in fact. Why? Is it because I'm realising that food can't actually fill the hole?
Anyhow, I'm embarking on the BC e course this week, so that should give me something concrete to witter on about. I bet you can't wait....